February 10, 2018

The Suckitudiness Of Self-Doubt

I suck at writing. My book sucks. My story blows.

Three tiny sentences I've repeated to myself on and off over the last couple of years. Something every writer experiences (at least from what I can tell from countless interviews, but perhaps there are a few lucky ones out there). Over and over again. And I assume it's the same no matter which art or profession on follows, or project one wishes to accomplish.

The key to winning this battle is to acknowledge this fear, take a deep breath, and then stick your butt in your chair (or wherever it needs to be to do what needs to be done) and just force yourself to work through that mental cement wall. It's not easy. I keep falling down because of it (this is one of the three main reasons why the third book in the Morgana Trilogy is taking so long to finally get into your hands), but the trick is to keep getting back up, right?

So no matter what your inner demons are telling you, keep faith in yourself, in what you're trying to accomplish. Get back up, and fight for yourself and your dreams! I will do the same.

Art by Narya Blackfyre

6 comments:

  1. Thank you for posting this. Perfect timing. Getting past that mental wall is sooo hard at times, but I keep moving forward!

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    1. Excellent, that is the most important step of all :) As we say in Korean, hwaiting!

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  2. So ... when can we, the fans, expect the final instalment of the trilogy? :)

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    1. Hello hello, and apologies for the late reply. Things are getting better, but slowly (I'm getting ready to move too, so that's unfortunately (or rather, "fortunately" in the long run, but adds to the suckitudiness in the short run). The last volume of the trilogy IS coming out this year though!!! (Apologies for being late with that too T.T)

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    2. Looking forward to it! :) And good luck with the editing! I am glad things are getting better. You'll get your ducks in a row, you'll see! Meanwhile, I'm rooting for you. No need to apologize. Sometimes, life happens (and shit too, unfortunately). Take care! xx

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    3. P.S.: Looking forward to introduce your novels to a new mate of mine who is very much into fantasy and scifi!

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